Unforgettable Love Story

Laurie has graciously given me permission to post this page. I hope that the advice I have given Laurie will help you in your life.

Laurie writes:

…My main struggle right now is trying to decide exactly what I want to do for my livelihood that will make me HAPPIEST.

…I am into MANY things, including hypnosis and meridian therapies/energy psychology.

…I think my main conflict is that, in my heart and mind, I love the idea of helping others… but inside I still feel like such a mess too much of the time that I feel almost hypocritical to think I can, when there are so many others who are so much more knowledgeable and better at it than me… but there is another piece, that I am more of an introvert in the first place, and have a HUGE creative side to my nature and have been developing my art and photography interests this last year. And in the last couple months, I have become intrigued with internet marketing and marketing in general…

…I’ve also discovered another cool possibility for a home business, creating stargazing ceilings for people with a special process available through a company called Starscapes! It is the magic-loving/creative side of me that is REALLY attracted to that, and I’ve sent for their intro kit and sample.

There are so MANY choices about how to do any one of the things I am interested in!

…I know the spiritual principles intellectually, and I know that no matter what I chose to do, if I am happy doing it, that will be the best for me and for the world.

But one of my base root beliefs/problems is that I CANNOT trust myself - so when it comes to making a choice and sticking to it, I am always second - guessing myself.

…The other part is, I am genuinely swayed and get enthused about each area of interest as I am exposed to other people who are into the same thing or material I find on the web… most days, by the end of the day I feel dizzy from all my shifts of feeling enthused about one thing after another, and frustrated by my lack of significant momentum toward any one of them!

I went through hypnosis training in July 2001, but I have not actually even tried to hypnotize anyone since.

…I keep asking myself, what is holding me back from actually getting on with hypnotizing someone, even just for practice, and it feels like fear of failure/perfectionism. There is a part of me that wonders if my seeming reluctance to do that is more to do with fear of not being able to do it perfectly right off the bat, and/or of hurting someone in the process - or whether I just really would prefer to do more impersonal things for money, like inter-network marketing, art, photography, or that Starscapes thing, and/or a combination of those, and NOT FEEL RESPONSIBLE for others.

Here’s my reply:

Laurie said:

…my main struggle right now is trying to decide exactly what I want to do for my livelihood that will make me HAPPIEST.

The words we use reveal a lot about our dominant vibration. I am referring to the word “struggle” that you used. This is the key. It feels like a struggle to you. Even if at the front of your mind you don’t think it is a struggle, if you feel your way through I am sure you will find you do feel it is a struggle.

So every time you think about what to do remind yourself that this is an unfulfilled desire. Be content with the fact that it is something yet to come and that the Universe will deliver you the guidance and direction and eventually you will know what to do… it will be obvious.

I was in this same place in March 2002… and many times in the past. But this time I relaxed into the unknown and let it just be an unknown. While in that space I reached for some things that I thought might lead me in the right direction, things I would enjoy doing. I followed what came to mind and had a great time.

This did not yield my new career path though… at least not from the appearance of it. It did open me up to learning about something new that did excite me. Eventually, four months later, the ideas and techniques to do this online business fell into my lap. After that everything just fell into place.

Laurie said:

…I think my main conflict is that, in my heart and mind, I love the idea of helping others… but inside I still feel like such a mess too much of the time that I feel almost hypocritical to think I can, when there are so many others who are so much more knowledgeable and better at it than me…

You can only help others when you are in a clear and centred place… the place where you feel good. The ideas of being a mess and feeling hypocritical will block this for you.

Remember you never get it wrong because you never get it done. We receive so many messages from unaware people telling us how unworthy we are and that you had to pass some test and acquire some credentials to be of value.

Even though there are others with more knowledge than you, those that are attracted to you and your energy are in the perfect place when they come to you. Because you still feel like such a mess you can relate to people who are just starting better than one who has moved way past that.

Just like a little sister would connect better with her older sister rather than with her parents when it comes to advise about life, those that are attracted to you will receive much more benefit from what you have to offer. So hold the image of being an older sister in your mind the next time someone wants your help… you will grow up soon enough.

I too had similar thoughts as I began this online healing practice. I thought, “Once my subscribers learn that a lot of what I teach comes from Abraham they will bypass me and go straight to Abe”.

How did I cope with that? I reached for better feeling ways to look at this.

For example…

I thought, “Abraham and Ester could only reach so many people and that there are 6 billion people on the planet that need what we have to offer. Someone could go to an Abe workshop, when it was in town, or pay to fly to a city that was having one. Yet they still take the risk that they might not get picked and still not get their question answered.”

Challenge the thoughts behind your feelings. You have come a long way and do have something to offer to someone. Trust the Universe to deliver the right people to you and then remain in that good feeling place when you work with them.

To be continued…

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